Appreciating this the immersion is now underway and that you may well have paused on this process for this time;

My sincere apologies; truth be told, it is mortifying for me to have submitted the request for assistance on the funding proposal page; a sure sign of my being in distress; and a reaching a point of despair with the battle with emf's, being near led lights, power sockets on walls, phones, computers; exacerbated by '6G testing' in Sussex which became so strong (at that time of the 'queen's funeral'), it was debilitating and disorientating; my new emf kit turned out to be superconducting frequencies and made everything ramp up several notches; to the extent where it was difficult to function and painful to be in my body; multiple timelines or fields of information were 'visible'; with the overall energies of destruction; and signals to prepare for power shutdowns, war, financial collapse and tsunami were all signalling. In some ways it was helpful to see these timelines; and it was very intense and a high load on my nervous system. 

This came right at the time of my writing an application to be considered for support for my work; and in the process of writing it, whilst listening to your tracks, it became clear that it was my physical needs that were most urgent; and that because of my financial situation, and also through habit, my work had taken first priority; seemingly a catch 22. 

My now being in a pocket of a valley with a tiny bit of 3G, this is offered in pure, radical honesty and to be fair to myself for what has been happening, that can create an impression that is less than honouring of the entirety of me. Thankyou for your encouragement to say how it is; as you say, there can only be what is. And it's been a process to say how it is. That is proving in itself, to be a profound and powerful catalyst for change. 

In the process of preparing to launch the seachange project, after one of your tracks regarding flow, ic occurred to me to switch to my original way of writing from right to left; mirror writing by and large; opening up a huge flow of clarity. Since then, whilst my process has become hugely more accurate a reflection on 'paper' of what is 'coming through' the process has doubled in workload, with everything hand-written onto tracing paper, and then written digitally. This taking longer, and my running out of money, reached a crunch point; exhausted and exasperated at the labourious process to 'access' the right words to express this work, it became too much and resulted in a brief, urgent request for assistance; with little context. 

The opportunity is valuable to me; your work is the most important in my entire life; and it is deeply umcomfortable to think that after so much work to articulate this new venture and the result of the purification of my entire working life, it arrived to you as a briefly written sos. A huge amount of work went into writing many versions of it, each evolving; the web page and work to prepare a video was taking such a time that it seemed like time was running out. 

My intention here is to evolve what was created to reflect the huge changes that this process has catalysed, for involvement or support from Oracle Girl. 

The enormity of my gratitude, is growing each day, with each part of this 'letter' to you, the depth of the change, the profound nature of this journey lands even more deeply in the cells of my being. The 26 months on this journey with you has been an intense purification of every part of my life, my body and is purifying my past, present and future. You have shown me how the path of conscious business can be; my deep dive into it from 2008 proved to be unsatisfactory; with so much manipulation and greenwash; to find someone who is truly walking that path, with integrity and in alignment with the values that are central to me; is the greatest gift

including yourself

money

business

leadership

abuse frequencies

technology

the wall of water

flow

priorities

plugging in my source connection

seeing how other were commanding my source connection

prioritising physical health and bonds of affection

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alignment

compass of care

trusting my 'sense' of things

having clearer boundaries with others

recomnnetopon with sourcre/plugging back in

recognising my name change as part of 'sannyasin' was a disconnection from ym source and my roots

purification of my work

recognition of my natural ability to purify, activate and catalyse

purify my name and reconnect me with my

A fellow PS member urged me to apply for funding some weeks ago for my work with 'sea change'; a visual toolkit and a game for navigating these times of turning tides and waves of change. In the process of working through how tobest approach this, and provide the context for it within my broader professional work, it became increasingly clear that a substantial amount of my work, the themes and topics covered, and the themes of the projects you support, are the same as those in my initial outline of my 'new work' as early as 2006; a social enterprise 'foundation; in 2008 which used my work with business/corporate/charity to fund community work and what was 'received' as a vision whilst in india, to be a platform for pioneering learning experiences that opened up consciousness; which are resonant with the two main dimensions of your work. The necessity to 'earn' the money to facilitate these, led me to a 12-year journey evolving professional practice in change management, learning, design and communications, being applied to 'making positive changes in wellbeing in communities' whilst intentionally deinstitutionalising, recovering my creativity and opening up my awareness after years of being seemingly dis or less connected; and now here, arriving almost full circle, at a place where your work is fully expressing and fulfilling this; and experiencing a powerful calling to be part of it. 

In my process of purifying, consolidating and restructuring and refining my work to be aligned with a deeper sense of my values and my alignment with the 'compass of care', there has been a grapple with my materialising of the final production of creations and offerings; especially with the freely given approach, the systems to support it; and a realisation that my strength and my flow is much more 'behind the scenes' than in front of a camera; all pointing to the need for me to be part of a team; the fulfilment of my unique instructions appears to count on it. It points to me needing to join one, or create one. 

Out on the skinny branches of courageous communication, you are the only one who has the integrity, values and honest way of communicating, a fierce love and welcoming of us as we are; and inviting the highest level of expression and fulfilment of our unique instructions, that would have me want to join an existing team. It is the most aligned work; beyond what was ever imaginable; bringing to the fore the very core of my values, and authentically expressing what is true at a level that was an unknown possible reality. It has redefined what business is; a profound evolution of the 'conscious business' journey that has been an active inquiry for me since 2004; and what was felt in my heart it was meant to be; yet had become so corrupted. It was outside of the realm of possibility for me, that a team could exist with this level of alignment and resonance in so many ways as this. 

My intention with this enquiry is to make it possible for you to see the alignment of my unique instructions with your work with Oracle Girl; to share an outline of what has been 'coming through' since my determined efforts to connect with and be guided by source since 2015; and present my strengths and experience, which have the potential to add value to your work.

As you well know, my purification process has been a 'bumpy ride' and despite 10 previous years of deinsitutionalisation, has still involved multiple intense levels and layers of deprogramming; this process continues; and it is fair and humbling to acknowledge that it may not yet be at a level which is a match to work with you; and something has been repeatedly signalling for me to communicate with you about this.  This is a bold and courageous move for me; and it is time for me to lay my cards on the table and be open to the process of exploration and trust in the natural intelligence of what unfolds or emerges from here.